The Old House (P1/2)

She saw a nickle drop from a tweed pocket. She saw it bounce two times.
There was no third; it landed. She stopped and stared.
A nickle from not this land, but a far away one. It was strange.
It was old, not fragile, but old. It had seen life, freed and imprisoned.
She picked it up, looked at it and put it down again. It was not her nickle.
It was a nickle, older than her long gone grandfather. The one she missed.

She arrived. Opened the door with her broken key. Used and turned.
The smell of a house left alone for years. Closed. Shut. A familiar scent.
The broken banister beside the collapsed stairs leading to the attic.
The air, as if afraid, fled from the newcomer,
the dust, startled, jumped and panicked.
"What a sad scene", she thought.

Along the hallway there were three doors. All of which guarded a room.
They resisted when she tried to enter. They wanted to jam, wanted to break.
She was persistent to get what she came for. She had a key in her purse.
That key, that seemed like a good hundred years old, was given to her
back when she used to go visit the house and the grandparents who lived there.

She entered the first room. She had to push the resistant door open with her shoulder.
The door squeaked and sighed when it gave in to let her enter. The door was unfortunate,
only guarding a single, tall closet with its doors missing and a dusty mattress. The window didnt want to help her see, but no amount of dust could stop her. Her steps made the floor
answer to the doors whining. She saw the closet was empty, but wanted to make sure.
The house was told to trick simple minds. And she remembered.

She had stayed over for the night. She had slept behind the second door.
She had been woken up minutes after midnight by, what at the time, sounded like a scream. It wasnt a scream.
The house didnt, and to this date doesnt, like us. Us who make noise and break the peace. The silence.
Men who shout and spit, women who scream and laugh. The doors, floors, ceilings and walls -
they dont like noise. And she remembered.

But still she entered, because she had to. She had to find out what the lock was hiding. The lock that, with her key, could be unlocked.

She ignored the second door for now. Memories told her to ignore it and take the next one. The third door.

The third door was not so far away from its inevitable defeat. She didnt have to open it, in the meaning of the word "open". She just had to gently touch it, and it opened and came crashing down onto the floor, waking the dust to its frightened dance. Like a dying old relative who needs a small push to reveal secrets on her deathbed. Dying soul who feels like there is nothing to lose, nothing to gain. It doesnt matter at that point. "Just give it to her, defy the words you said, dont mind what you swore."

As she entered the slightly larger room, she could feel the air she breathed get friendlier. This was the third room. The room where once songs were sang, dances were danced and good times were had. The third room was the friendliest of the three. The room had seen what we had to offer, the good and the bad. And it decided to accept us. Accept us as we are; eventually violent, greedy, dirty creatures whose heads are occupied by a single thought and a single thought only - "more".

But it was a nice room all in all.

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[5minChallenge]

5 minute challenges again

its good for the mind but bad for the body

sweating and swearing

Fuck it Im rewriting

whatever I just wrote down implying

that Ive something to say

Theyre not gonna catch us

They dont stand a chance - do they?

They will never see us

Forever we'll stand - wont we?

Its not as easy as you think to do it

Breathing gets hard and words get stuck

Many have failed but I will make it

Hope that karma..wait, we dont give a fuck

3 minutes to go still

Theres still time to finish this song

Standing, jumping up and down

Fuck it I wont rewrite

no matter what comes out from these keys

Ive nothing more to say

They will never get us

press pause to silence the dreams

no time to waste, screw the nightmares

1 minute to finish it all

Doesnt matter what we do

if you did it anyway

Youre stronger after you did it

even if just a little bit

Be fast be strong be f

FF

Disappearing things they filled me in

Coming alive never felt so good

Living in a dream, it let me in

I lay here in the dark, but not alone

Nothing ever slipped away

Sudden realization of whats true

Nothing more to give away

Slight tweaks and fixed gears

Once you open your eyes

A different point of view

Still trying to find my way

Variety of feelings from day to day

Maybe we never found way

Spin around within the haze

Only thing re-entering

Bittersweet remembering

I pulled myself away

from the edge of it all

I laid there in the dark

Try not to close your eyes

I tried to keep it at bay

from the end of it all

I laid there in the dark

Trying not to open my eyes

But then I realize

Nothing more to give

Its just your demise

And youre the one laughing at me

Shoelaces

Mouth says its alright

But your face looks like its just seen a ghost

Its not always been there

Maybe its just a reflection

I know you would care

But the words, the thoughts, they give it away

Ive always been here

Never gotten acceptation

You say its alright

I just feel like I can see through the lie

Im still the same

Longing for affection

Tired shoes

Untied laces

Whatever you choose

Imperfection

Choose a way

Between light and the dark

After all, we're just who we are

I held onto you

We had to let go for reasons unknown

They werent always there

Afraid of deflection

A book for us

About how we loved and we lost

Been published everywhere

But feels like you dont care

Tired shoes

Untied laces

Whatever you choose

Imperfection

Choose a way

Between light and the dark

After all, we're just who we are

I could count to millions

trying to catch up the meanings

We're not the same, but were here

I could count to tens

Just to see what she means

Tired shoes

Untied laces

Whatever you choose

Imperfection

Choose a way

Between light and the dark

After all, we're just who we are

Unattended

Its not the encore that winds you up
Its not the days of desperation, more like
A thing or two that light you up
Twenty thousand hours of writing
Afterwards deleting

I know that one day we'll be there
Just let us be and live our lives, just like
Doing shit somewhere doesnt mean
Youre fucking up everything
Afterwards celebrating

Its not the comfort you run after
Its not the safety you long for
Its the chords of the piano
singing a story
telling a tale

You want an explanation, I dont have one
All Ive is this town, this city, this land
Land of hearts, land of easy and hard

Now you cant tell me to shut up
Its not the days of happiness, more like
A thing or two that screw up
2 years of something
Afterwards doubting

No, we cant go back, thats true
But you can go only forward, just like
Rails stuck on highways, and like
Luggage left unattended, more like
This is the last call for the flight

Its not the comfort youre running after
Its not the safety youre longing for
Its the syllables of pixels
Ending the story
Stalling the seas

You want an explanation, I dont have one
All Ive is this town, this city, this land
Land of hearts, land of easy and hard
Land of lies, death and disease

Cure for Crying

No one sees your tears
when its raining
Mamas not home
daddys out of town
All its left was dust and dark
Candles last breath

When you find yourself at a crossroads
Who knows whats the right way to go
Its like flesh and bone
All together, all alone

Dreams to dust and love wont last
Blood to sand and an empty cast
Just missing whats gone
They say life carries on

Dying mothers last wish
Please let the others live
Flying spirits' last wish
Please let the others rest

No one sees your tears
when its raining
Mamas not home
daddys out of town

Its all my fault, for lying
Still, no cure for crying

Gabriel

There might be a place where you belong
you might not see just yet
It was just an hour ago, just a moment in past
looks like it will take time to sink in

I grieve, I long for the times when we were
one, like we just met
Like a moment ago, it would last
looks like it will take some time

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

Its not what I wanted to say or show
I might not feel just yet
It was just a week ago, all so different
feels like it has already sunk in

Theres flesh and theres bone
but no one is home
I wish you'll lead me home
for me it all feels like its gone

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

But I dont see how they could not believe
The memories we all made to be
It was an hour ago, it was different
Looks like it always did

Theres flesh and theres bone
Now theres no one home

I agree, with you
You leave, me
Its so hard to move on
Longing for whats gone

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

But I just find an empty heart
An empty cage

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
But you leave
me here