lauantai 19. syyskuuta 2015

last leg

this isnt a poem, this isnt literature
you wouldnt believe how little you own em
a figure of speech, a figure on a paper
yea they leech, youll win later
its a matter of will and wit and a clever mind
that manager who makes you write that paper

yea I did rhyme paper with paper
call me a loser, call me a failure
though aint paper all were after
yea I faked, yea I lied
we made it through all this, does it matter
who said what, enough they cried

Im not saying Im a lyrical genius
Im just saying you make nauseous
Im not saying Im good at what I do
Just saying were tired of you blaming - us 

dont stop blaming - us
cuz isnt that what fuels - us
whoever chose what means - us
did I ever choose to become one of - us
thank you for fighting the rights of - us
we didnt ask for it but are we still there for - us

the noise downstairs, the noise in my head
the noise outside, what difference does it make
brass clowns blowing their horns, no one cares
oh god, who asked them to do their job
well I can tell you were giving em their share

the noise downstairs, the noise inside my head
the noise outside, what difference does it make
maybe the only line in this writing that makes any sense
let me just try my hardest to rhyme it with something else

Im heading out, thank you for listening everyone
takes a while to vomit a line after a line everyone
well done everyone, we made it so far
had no idea where to go from the start...

lauantai 22. elokuuta 2015

you know this cliff looks so tempting

Oh, my lord
Such a long way we've come
No matter the mud
I will try and fight the cold

Oh, our lord
So sour the taste become
The frozen hill
Will never give us hope

One day we will - find another one
Keep telling them - we'll be fine

So does the wind, keep screaming at your name
Dazing and arguing, will keep at us bay
One day we will - find another one
Keep telling them - we'll be fine
We'll be fine

 

tiistai 11. elokuuta 2015

Hello, world.

Well done everyone, we made it so far.

Never had an idea where to go from the start.

perjantai 27. helmikuuta 2015

27-2-15

We all have our struggles and we rarely change
Think I've had my chances and Im still afraid
Never a thing that defines my success or fate
No matter what I do or manage to make

Sometimes it comes from a place of love
but I can only get so many tells from god
Im ashamed, I regret, I get shat upon
After a while it stops hitting home

perjantai 22. elokuuta 2014

Edited a couple words

Once i a while they tell you just to write down how you feel,.
How you feel.
Itå'll help, it'll ease.g
Once in a while they tell you to shut down, and just listen-.
Turn it off and on again
Isnt that what sleep is for?
Sleep over it and give it a thought.



Im writing this blind.
Cant see whats going on.

Double enter, changes the line.
Hope I didnt mess up the rhyme.
This sll might just be in vain
<But theres nothing we can do to fsin
To gain something to love

Being blind you can only see
What the screen light tells you to see
I might not edit all of this
Or I might edit some if it

I openedmy eyes and saw what I wrote so far
Wasnt that great but hey, we made it this far

Didnt know where to go from the start
But hey we made it this far.

Im using my old lines again
Guess my iades are growing old

As is everything I was told
by the oarents I had and never had
piano is the sweetest sound
piano is the sweetest sound

the chords you can play on a porper piano
can change lives Iv e been told
can comfirm, changed mine

sweetest chords, all the same
doesnt matter, we're alll the same

sweetest chords, al lthe same
doesnt matter, start again¨
start again

double enter starts again

torstai 27. maaliskuuta 2014

Camera

Sometimes you see the sunlight, it blinds your sight
Rarely they come in your town, they light up the night
You cant deny the draw, its all about the luck
You can and cant relate to, never falling behind

Tall buildings - and, so - tourists
They come to see your town, oh oh
They come to ruin your town, oh oh

Flashes are blinking, in the rhythm of the bank
They cant help but sink in, the money that they bank
You cant deny the dares, they made to make it here
No matter where they end up, they are still here

Tall buildings - and, so - living
They come to see my town, oh oh
They come to ruin my town, oh oh

They come to ruin - our town, town

No matter how you look at it, its still the same
All of it just makes you angry, by their flashing lights
Sign a paper or two, its the shit that you made
Cant and could not see how, they all delight

Tall buildings - and, so - living
They come to see my town, oh oh
You come to ruin my town, oh oh

You came and ruined, my town
My town, my town
My town, my town

Theres just a few of us who remember the past
All the rest just read about, about whats now
Theres just a few of us who remember the past
All the rest just read about, about whats now

Tall - and, so
Tall - and, so

Theyre here to see my town, oh oh
Theyre here to ruin my town, oh oh

sunnuntai 23. maaliskuuta 2014

123

No matter how I try it is hard to count to - ten
Nothing makes any sense and its hard to see how - it begins
All goes well until you see how - it falls apart
Cant say how we manage to - live on, live on

Two letter words, they never make it - till the end
Spam any keys just to make some - any sense
All goes well 'till we see how - it begins
No idea how - were still here, were still here

One two three, are the hardest call
Never know where, to stop
Four five six, someday we'll fall
One two three, its the hardest call

Piano as the player will always be silent - for now
No matter how deep the grave it'll always be just full of regret

One can count to three or see what happens
Second can count the seconds just to what happens
One can count just to see what happens
Second can count just to see it happen
--

One two three, are the hardest call
Never know where, to stop
Four five six, someday we'll fall
One two three, its the hardest call
--

Piano player wont be silent, the last notes will be for him
Nothing I ever do will be counted, this is all for him
If you opened the cage, it wouldnt change a thing
We'll all be silent. This notes for him.

--

One two three, its not that hard
to see how they tried so hard
They tried so hard and all you did
was to bury the dreams you never had
--

Piano player will never be silent
One will never be shut

Its not words that make him shy
Its the words that she never found

sunnuntai 26. tammikuuta 2014

Five Minute Challenge

Clock says start

Sirens in the distance, no attention spared
Three voices split into thousand likes
No words being really heard
Like my whispering to the mics

Only an echo to the well of silence
Cup of care for all the thoughts
All we want is obedience
Unlike my whispering of lives

They stack up to four or five
Home is where the home is

Three roads meet once every two moons
Not knowing where to go, yikes
I might be running out of times
Of our ever so slight lives

Last few lines to go, moons up
Suns down and nothing to see
Stars be out and cups empty
Im sai

Clock says stop

sunnuntai 15. joulukuuta 2013

The Old House (P1/2)

She saw a nickle drop from a tweed pocket. She saw it bounce two times.
There was no third; it landed. She stopped and stared.
A nickle from not this land, but a far away one. It was strange.
It was old, not fragile, but old. It had seen life, freed and imprisoned.
She picked it up, looked at it and put it down again. It was not her nickle.
It was a nickle, older than her long gone grandfather. The one she missed.

She arrived. Opened the door with her broken key. Used and turned.
The smell of a house left alone for years. Closed. Shut. A familiar scent.
The broken banister beside the collapsed stairs leading to the attic.
The air, as if afraid, fled from the newcomer,
the dust, startled, jumped and panicked.
"What a sad scene", she thought.

Along the hallway there were three doors. All of which guarded a room.
They resisted when she tried to enter. They wanted to jam, wanted to break.
She was persistent to get what she came for. She had a key in her purse.
That key, that seemed like a good hundred years old, was given to her
back when she used to go visit the house and the grandparents who lived there.

She entered the first room. She had to push the resistant door open with her shoulder.
The door squeaked and sighed when it gave in to let her enter. The door was unfortunate,
only guarding a single, tall closet with its doors missing and a dusty mattress. The window didnt want to help her see, but no amount of dust could stop her. Her steps made the floor
answer to the doors whining. She saw the closet was empty, but wanted to make sure.
The house was told to trick simple minds. And she remembered.

She had stayed over for the night. She had slept behind the second door.
She had been woken up minutes after midnight by, what at the time, sounded like a scream. It wasnt a scream.
The house didnt, and to this date doesnt, like us. Us who make noise and break the peace. The silence.
Men who shout and spit, women who scream and laugh. The doors, floors, ceilings and walls -
they dont like noise. And she remembered.

But still she entered, because she had to. She had to find out what the lock was hiding. The lock that, with her key, could be unlocked.

She ignored the second door for now. Memories told her to ignore it and take the next one. The third door.

The third door was not so far away from its inevitable defeat. She didnt have to open it, in the meaning of the word "open". She just had to gently touch it, and it opened and came crashing down onto the floor, waking the dust to its frightened dance. Like a dying old relative who needs a small push to reveal secrets on her deathbed. Dying soul who feels like there is nothing to lose, nothing to gain. It doesnt matter at that point. "Just give it to her, defy the words you said, dont mind what you swore."

As she entered the slightly larger room, she could feel the air she breathed get friendlier. This was the third room. The room where once songs were sang, dances were danced and good times were had. The third room was the friendliest of the three. The room had seen what we had to offer, the good and the bad. And it decided to accept us. Accept us as we are; eventually violent, greedy, dirty creatures whose heads are occupied by a single thought and a single thought only - "more".

But it was a nice room all in all.

--



tiistai 6. elokuuta 2013

[5minChallenge]

5 minute challenges again
its good for the mind but bad for the body
sweating and swearing

Fuck it Im rewriting
whatever I just wrote down implying
that Ive something to say

Theyre not gonna catch us
They dont stand a chance - do they?
They will never see us
Forever we'll stand - wont we?

Its not as easy as you think to do it
Breathing gets hard and words get stuck
Many have failed but I will make it
Hope that karma..wait, we dont give a fuck

3 minutes to go still
Theres still time to finish this song
Standing, jumping up and down

Fuck it I wont rewrite
no matter what comes out from these keys
Ive nothing more to say

They will never get us
press pause to silence the dreams
no time to waste, screw the nightmares
1 minute to finish it all

Doesnt matter what we do
if you did it anyway
Youre stronger after you did it
even if just a little bit
Be fast be strong be f

lauantai 22. kesäkuuta 2013

FF

Disappearing things they filled me in
Coming alive never felt so good
Living in a dream, it let me in
I lay here in the dark, but not alone

Nothing ever slipped away
Sudden realization of whats true
Nothing more to give away
Slight tweaks and fixed gears

Once you open your eyes
A different point of view
Still trying to find my way
Variety of feelings from day to day

Maybe we never found way
Spin around within the haze
Only thing re-entering
Bittersweet remembering

I pulled myself away
from the edge of it all
I laid there in the dark
Try not to close your eyes

I tried to keep it at bay
from the end of it all
I laid there in the dark
Trying not to open my eyes

But then I realize
Nothing more to give
Its just your demise
And youre the one laughing at me


keskiviikko 19. kesäkuuta 2013

Shoelaces

Mouth says its alright
But your face looks like its just seen a ghost
Its not always been there
Maybe its just a reflection

I know you would care
But the words, the thoughts, they give it away
Ive always been here
Never gotten acceptation

You say its alright
I just feel like I can see through the lie
Im still the same
Longing for affection

Tired shoes
Untied laces
Whatever you choose
Imperfection
Choose a way
Between light and the dark
After all, we're just who we are

I held onto you
We had to let go for reasons unknown
They werent always there
Afraid of deflection

A book for us
About how we loved and we lost
Been published everywhere
But feels like you dont care

Tired shoes
Untied laces
Whatever you choose
Imperfection
Choose a way
Between light and the dark
After all, we're just who we are

I could count to millions
trying to catch up the meanings
We're not the same, but were here
I could count to tens
Just to see what she means

Tired shoes
Untied laces
Whatever you choose
Imperfection
Choose a way
Between light and the dark
After all, we're just who we are


tiistai 18. kesäkuuta 2013

Unattended

Its not the encore that winds you up
Its not the days of desperation, more like
A thing or two that light you up
Twenty thousand hours of writing
Afterwards deleting

I know that one day we'll be there
Just let us be and live our lives, just like
Doing shit somewhere doesnt mean
Youre fucking up everything
Afterwards celebrating

Its not the comfort you run after
Its not the safety you long for
Its the chords of the piano
singing a story
telling a tale

You want an explanation, I dont have one
All Ive is this town, this city, this land
Land of hearts, land of easy and hard

Now you cant tell me to shut up
Its not the days of happiness, more like
A thing or two that screw up
2 years of something
Afterwards doubting

No, we cant go back, thats true
But you can go only forward, just like
Rails stuck on highways, and like
Luggage left unattended, more like
This is the last call for the flight

Its not the comfort youre running after
Its not the safety youre longing for
Its the syllables of pixels
Ending the story
Stalling the seas

You want an explanation, I dont have one
All Ive is this town, this city, this land
Land of hearts, land of easy and hard
Land of lies, death and disease

Cure for Crying

No one sees your tears
when its raining
Mamas not home
daddys out of town
All its left was dust and dark
Candles last breath

When you find yourself at a crossroads
Who knows whats the right way to go
Its like flesh and bone
All together, all alone

Dreams to dust and love wont last
Blood to sand and an empty cast
Just missing whats gone
They say life carries on

Dying mothers last wish
Please let the others live
Flying spirits' last wish
Please let the others rest

No one sees your tears
when its raining
Mamas not home
daddys out of town

Its all my fault, for lying
Still, no cure for crying

sunnuntai 16. kesäkuuta 2013

Gabriel

There might be a place where you belong
you might not see just yet
It was just an hour ago, just a moment in past
looks like it will take time to sink in

I grieve, I long for the times when we were
one, like we just met
Like a moment ago, it would last
looks like it will take some time

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

Its not what I wanted to say or show
I might not feel just yet
It was just a week ago, all so different
feels like it has already sunk in

Theres flesh and theres bone
but no one is home
I wish you'll lead me home
for me it all feels like its gone

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

But I dont see how they could not believe
The memories we all made to be
It was an hour ago, it was different
Looks like it always did

Theres flesh and theres bone
Now theres no one home

I agree, with you
You leave, me
Its so hard to move on
Longing for whats gone

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
They say carry on

But I just find an empty heart
An empty cage

I grieve
I agree
They say life moves on
But you leave
me here

sunnuntai 26. toukokuuta 2013

b'airs 'n' rock'am

Its not easy for us to do what we do
like its not easy for you to do as you do
Popping collars is one way to shoot
youre not the only one who thought it was cool

Dropping syllables on a grave or two
Not like there was anything better to do
Its not about the journey, its about the money
Its all about the fame, not about a honey

I cant change for what Ive been
I cant change for what I am
But it was a good run anyway


sunnuntai 5. toukokuuta 2013

Otto

I slowly fade away
With the sands of time
Theres no easy way out

I try to keep them at bay
Block them from my mind
But they just keep creeping in

Try breathing in, try breathing out
All just seems so undefined

Like Im passing by
Running out of time
And I feel undermined

I am alive
But for how long a time
We are alive
But why do we try

Fight, just a waste of time
No reason to try
Theres no easy way out

I try to move along
Find where I belong
Someone to rely on

Bridges burn behind, wheels they turn around
All things slowly turn to dark

Like Im passing by
Running out of time
And I feel so undermined

I am alive
But for how long a time
We are alive
But why do we try

I am alive
But for how long a time
We are alive
But still we try

Not saying I wont try
Some flaws I wont deny
Not saying I wont try
Heres hoping I wont die

I am alive
But for how long a time
We are alive
But still we try


I am alive
But for how long a time
We are alive
But still we try

keskiviikko 17. huhtikuuta 2013

the Goo

in this morning haze, it seems so hard to think
after restless dreams and a lonely night
thought that still haunts my mind
the choices we made inside our heads

seems this world is made for us fools
likely to word just another tool
thought that still haunts our minds
that chances seems too hard to take

wine bottles promptly named 'the goo'
waking up at 3am to the sound we make
when toes touch something oddly cold

Its been cold for months
What if ice never melts
Spring is late this year
What if the ice never melts?

Ill try to look for ways and means
to fix the mood and the lights
Ill try to look for ways and means
to warm it up again

sometimes your mind starts to wonder
when it should be here and now
thought that still haunts inside me
the lack of action and reaction

like letters that shouldve been sent
only so much they could prevent

wine bottles promptly named 'the goo'
waking up at 3am to the sound we make
when toes touch something oddly cold

Its been cold for months
What if ice never melts
Spring is late this year
What if the ice never melts?

Ill try to look for ways and means
to fix the mood and the lights
Ill try to look for ways and means
to warm it up again

lauantai 6. huhtikuuta 2013

In Doubt

If green is for grimwits, and silver for moons
Red can be dangerous, and love is for fools
But fool is something, one should not fear
Because fool is the one, who made it real

If silence is golden, and nothing will last
should be we silent, whats been is past
If anger is venom, hatred comes last
Love is like poison, driving you mad

I dont know what to say to you
Like its driving me away from you
Its not something to brag about
Getting rid of the doubt
To say it out loud

perjantai 8. maaliskuuta 2013

ono

One name over, one nice operation
Opinion necessarily open
Orion never over

On nameless ones, on nightmare oils
Ovulation near over
Obstacles no open

Octagon not overlooked
Obligation not okay
Over, never over

One never over, one niche opportunity
Of neighbors old, of near ops
Over, never over